Shawn Mendes is making fans go “what did he just say??” thanks to lyrics from his new single, “Why Why Why.” The lyrics read: “I thought I was about to be a father, shook me to the core. I’m still a kid, sometimes I cry out for my mother.”

He says the music has been healing for him. “Two years ago I had absolutely no idea who I was. A year ago I couldn’t step into a studio without falling into complete panic. So to be here right now with 12 beautiful finished songs feels like such a gift.”

He shared some of his process in the studio from back in March.

His album drops in October.